When I first woke this morning, for a few seconds I relished the fact that it was Sunday. Then I realised with something akin to horror that it was actually Monday. For a moment I wanted to pull the covers over my bed, smash my phone against the wall and tell the whole world to go to hell. I wanted to sleep for hours. I did not want to walk the dogs, I did not want to get up and work, I did not want to do anything. Most of all I did not want to pretend that being a parent is a rewarding gig 100% of the time. For a few moments I wanted to lie there and acknowledge that sometimes it is mind-numbingly relentless, that sometimes there are no rewards and occasionally the boring repetition of it all makes me want to jump right into the Ballad of Lucy Jordan.
I love my kids, I adore them, they are my life and I would fight for them like a bloody ferocious lioness if I had to. It still doesn’t mean that I don’t get where Lucy was coming from when she went quietly insane.
Bad case of Mondayitis. Bad. Really bad. So you have the love, joy and the reward of bringing two little characters up. But occasionally, like my first few waking moments this morning, you wonder when you will get a break. As a mother you forget the art of being selfish. And there are moments, like this morning that you really miss it. There are some things as a mother I hate. I hate doing endless loads of washing. And I hate how ¾ of the wash is inside out. Turning things the right way out when they are wet really pisses me off. I hate the endless responsibility. Or at least I get sick of it. If I don’t prepare dinner then the kids don’t eat. Sometimes that pisses me off. I hate unloading groceries. I hate it. I wish I could drive up and the groceries could unload themselves. But they won’t and the fact that I have to go to the supermarket generally at least once a week really irks me. What a fucking waste of time.
These moments are few and far between the endless moments of joy but I think we should be entitled to them. I get exhausted by this idea that motherhood is the most rewarding and amazing thing you can do. Of course it bloody is – that is stating the obvious. You have created these little people, brought them into the world and unless you are bat-shit crazy then you automatically want to do the absolute best for them. The very best you can do. But that does not take away from the fact that it is hard work, that babies are completely boring and that for 3 months you wonder if you are going to be surrounded by vomit, poo and baby milk for the rest of eternity. Toddlers can make you want to sit in the corner of a room and rock back and forth whilst making sure the wall repeatedly meets your forehead. Young school-kids can drive you to distraction as you have to remind them countless times over and over again to do the bloody obvious.
Sometimes it is nice to complain about the fact that bringing up two little souls is actually the hardest thing you have ever done and that some days you don’t get any rewards – you just get whingeing, bickering, complaining and exhaustion. Sometimes motherhood completely sucks.
Some days you would prefer a great big frozen coke with a bag of lollies and an empty cinema with the best chick flick in the world. Some days that would be great.
Just some days. Most other days you wouldn’t change a thing.
I love roast vegetables. They are my new treat for when I am feeling lazy, want something tasty and want to put minimal effort in. It is funny – there are so many vegetables I used to think were unappealing but are in fact absolutely delicious. This combination with the tahini sauce was a winner as well. So much better than that frozen cake with bag of lollies.
And for all of us who groan at the thought of Broccoli as being one of those unappealing vegetables it is actually one of the superfoods out there and a damn sight more appealing (for me that is) than kale. My friends from well-beingsecrets.com wrote this article about the 43 health benefits of broccoli! Go on I dare you to read it and be astounded. No wonder it is one of my favourites.
Roast Broccoli & Sweet Potato Fries with Spicy Tahini Sauce
Sweet Potato Fries:
1 Sweet Potato
2 Teaspoons salt
1 teaspoon pepper
½ teaspoon paprika
½ teaspoon cayenne pepper
½ teaspoon garlic powder
1 teaspoon oregano
Peel Sweet Potato, then slice relatively thinly, then slice the slices so you have fry sized pieces.
Combine all the spices.
Toss the sweet potato in about a teaspoon of olive oil and the spice mix and make sure evenly mixed.
Lay out on two baking trays with baking paper. Make sure fries are evenly spread so they are separate from each other.
Cook for 20 minutes on approximately 180 degrees then check and turn fries over. Cook for a further 10 – 20 minutes until fries are lovely and crispy.
1 head of Broccoli
1 teaspoon garlic powder
1 teaspoon onion power
1 teaspoon ground cumin
½ teaspoon cayenne pepper
2 Tablespoon of olive oil
Trim the head of Broccoli into florets discarding the central stalk.
Toss the florets in olive oil. Add the spices and toss with hands ensuring seasoning is evenly distributed.
Put the Broccoli on baking paper on a tray.
Allow 20 minutes for the Broccoli to cook – put it into oven after you have checked the sweet potato.
Spicy Tahini Sauce:
½ cup Tahini
¼ cup water
2 tablespoons lemon juice
2 tablespoons olive oil
2 clove garlic – crushed
Tabasco sauce – quite a few drops
Place all ingredients in a blender and blend thoroughly. You may need to add a little more water depending on the consistency.